Joss Whedon, you evil, evil man...
So, here I am, its a Sunday night, and all day today I have felt really restless, sad, depressed, and antsy like there's something I'm supposed to be doing that I'm not doing. Part of that is that we're moving on Wednesday and there's so much packing to do I don't know how we're going to get it done.
But a really big part of why I have felt like this is because yesterday and into very early this morning, my friends and I had our Buffyfest. We watched 15 episodes and had 2 more to watch but we didn't get to them. Anyhow the Buffyfest was a complete and total blast, it was so amazing being able to watch episode after episode of Buffy and not have to say, "do you want to watch another one" or worry about someone falling asleep.
However, the last two episodes we watched were "Chosen" and "The Body", back to back. It was tough. I usually sob like a crazy woman watching "Chosen" and "The Body" but i think i was so worried about sounding and looking like a fool that I forced myself not to cry like i normally would. I teared up at Anya's speech in "The Body" and throughout the entire ep of "Chosen" my stomach was in knots and my heart was beating so fast it was funny.
Anyway, to watch those two eps as the last ones before i went home was a bad idea, because all day i have felt sad and this is why. All i can think about is Spike dying a hero, feeling his soul and finally knowing that Buffy loved him, and YES she did. And then i see Anya and Willow becoming a Goddess and i just get all torn up inside, it's a happy that makes me cry and a sadness that makes me happy, its confusing and its nerdy. I hear the "Chosen" battle music/Buffy and Spike love theme and the Every girl a Slayer music that whole piece of music and i die a little inside because I can see that whole sequence all playing out in my mind and it kills me, good god its so good and everything happening is so amazing, and just gaaahhhhhhhhh!!!!
I mean i watched these eps early this morning, like 4 and 5 in the morning and they are still affecting me this way and have affected my mood all day. Only Joss Whedon and Buffy the Vampire Slayer could affect me this way. My thoughts all day have been crowded with Buffy, Spike, Willow, Anya and everyone else. This is so much more than a television show and dear Lord, my love for it and for the characters and actors and Joss goes beyond words i could use to accurately describe it.
Just wanted to get this down and tell the world I love Joss, I love Spike and everything about the Buffyverse. And oh yes, my friends are the best for doing the Buffyfest and being as nerdy as I am when it comes to this amazing work of art. Joss you are evil indeed, and I love you for it.
But a really big part of why I have felt like this is because yesterday and into very early this morning, my friends and I had our Buffyfest. We watched 15 episodes and had 2 more to watch but we didn't get to them. Anyhow the Buffyfest was a complete and total blast, it was so amazing being able to watch episode after episode of Buffy and not have to say, "do you want to watch another one" or worry about someone falling asleep.
However, the last two episodes we watched were "Chosen" and "The Body", back to back. It was tough. I usually sob like a crazy woman watching "Chosen" and "The Body" but i think i was so worried about sounding and looking like a fool that I forced myself not to cry like i normally would. I teared up at Anya's speech in "The Body" and throughout the entire ep of "Chosen" my stomach was in knots and my heart was beating so fast it was funny.
Anyway, to watch those two eps as the last ones before i went home was a bad idea, because all day i have felt sad and this is why. All i can think about is Spike dying a hero, feeling his soul and finally knowing that Buffy loved him, and YES she did. And then i see Anya and Willow becoming a Goddess and i just get all torn up inside, it's a happy that makes me cry and a sadness that makes me happy, its confusing and its nerdy. I hear the "Chosen" battle music/Buffy and Spike love theme and the Every girl a Slayer music that whole piece of music and i die a little inside because I can see that whole sequence all playing out in my mind and it kills me, good god its so good and everything happening is so amazing, and just gaaahhhhhhhhh!!!!
I mean i watched these eps early this morning, like 4 and 5 in the morning and they are still affecting me this way and have affected my mood all day. Only Joss Whedon and Buffy the Vampire Slayer could affect me this way. My thoughts all day have been crowded with Buffy, Spike, Willow, Anya and everyone else. This is so much more than a television show and dear Lord, my love for it and for the characters and actors and Joss goes beyond words i could use to accurately describe it.
Just wanted to get this down and tell the world I love Joss, I love Spike and everything about the Buffyverse. And oh yes, my friends are the best for doing the Buffyfest and being as nerdy as I am when it comes to this amazing work of art. Joss you are evil indeed, and I love you for it.
posted by Not This Girl, Not This Day at 9:35 PM
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