Bored Now...
So, okay i don't really feel like writing a full length post about all the shit going on that is plaguing my thoughts at this moment and believe me there are plenty of things swirling around up there right now to keep me occupied. But you know how when you feel so much stuff and you're thinking about so much stuff and its just all too much to articulate and write down in one coherent thought? Well, that's how i feel right now. There is a lot going on and i just don't have the energy nor the desire right this moment to write it all down and disect each and every thing.
Basically, my parents are fucked up and they fuck us up, they can't stand eachother and they are miserable and that makes everyone else miserable, i am getting to the point where I am just ready to say you know what, just separate and get on with your lives cuz youre making it bad for everyone.
Second, i still really have a lot of crap going on as far as my feelings towards my sister, i really dislike her, she's rude, selfish, snotty and i just generally can't stand her most of the time, but every so often she has flashes of how she used to be and it's cool, but mostly its just a general unrest and disgust i feel towards her.
I love my brother, he's perfection on Earth for me, he makes things better for me and good God, if he weren't here i would be long gone from this house and this shit. He has started taking some medicine for ADHD, we all really hate this, but we have been putting it off for 3 years and finally, with him failing three classes this 6 weeks, my mom decided that we should at least try it, not for our sakes becasue we don't want him taking meds and being funky and feeling bad because of it, but for his sake because he deserves a chance to do well in school. And if things don't improve, then perhaps we'll decide that he doesn't need to take them anymore and we'll have to go from there.
My cat, William went Tuesday and had surgery to be neutered but it wasn't just a regular neutering because he had a recessed testicle (so not funny to me, but apparently it is to nearly everyone else) so they had to make an incision in his abdomen and therefore it was a bit more intensive surgery. Plus he got, various shots and stuff. Then he had to stay overnight, and that completely sucked. I missed him so much, he really and truly is like my child and i hated being away from him for the night. He is still moving around gingerly and carefully, he's less active, not that he was active before, but you can just tell that he's not yet back to his normal self. I feel so awful and guilty but i know that he needed to have that stuff done.
Ok, well I suppose I'm finished for now, hopefully I'll get back to a little bit more regular schedule of updating and then i won't feel so overwhelmed with info and thoughts that i just can't write it all out.
"I am beautifully broken
And I don't mind if you know it
I am beautifully broken
And I don't care if I show it" "Beautifully Broken" Ashlee Simpson
Goodnight.
Basically, my parents are fucked up and they fuck us up, they can't stand eachother and they are miserable and that makes everyone else miserable, i am getting to the point where I am just ready to say you know what, just separate and get on with your lives cuz youre making it bad for everyone.
Second, i still really have a lot of crap going on as far as my feelings towards my sister, i really dislike her, she's rude, selfish, snotty and i just generally can't stand her most of the time, but every so often she has flashes of how she used to be and it's cool, but mostly its just a general unrest and disgust i feel towards her.
I love my brother, he's perfection on Earth for me, he makes things better for me and good God, if he weren't here i would be long gone from this house and this shit. He has started taking some medicine for ADHD, we all really hate this, but we have been putting it off for 3 years and finally, with him failing three classes this 6 weeks, my mom decided that we should at least try it, not for our sakes becasue we don't want him taking meds and being funky and feeling bad because of it, but for his sake because he deserves a chance to do well in school. And if things don't improve, then perhaps we'll decide that he doesn't need to take them anymore and we'll have to go from there.
My cat, William went Tuesday and had surgery to be neutered but it wasn't just a regular neutering because he had a recessed testicle (so not funny to me, but apparently it is to nearly everyone else) so they had to make an incision in his abdomen and therefore it was a bit more intensive surgery. Plus he got, various shots and stuff. Then he had to stay overnight, and that completely sucked. I missed him so much, he really and truly is like my child and i hated being away from him for the night. He is still moving around gingerly and carefully, he's less active, not that he was active before, but you can just tell that he's not yet back to his normal self. I feel so awful and guilty but i know that he needed to have that stuff done.
Ok, well I suppose I'm finished for now, hopefully I'll get back to a little bit more regular schedule of updating and then i won't feel so overwhelmed with info and thoughts that i just can't write it all out.
"I am beautifully broken
And I don't mind if you know it
I am beautifully broken
And I don't care if I show it" "Beautifully Broken" Ashlee Simpson
Goodnight.
posted by Not This Girl, Not This Day at 4:51 AM
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